Sunday, November 13, 2011

*sigh*...PLEASE PRAY

This post is a plea for prayer. A plea for prayer for a lady who I have had the pleasure of getting to know briefly but feel like I have known for a long time. She is that type of person. You are immediately drawn to her and her sweet spirit and you instantly feel like you have known her for years.
Anyways, before I share her whole story with you in a later journal entry, I will share this with you first. Cathey has recently found out that her breast cancer has returned and is now in her liver...now NO place is a "good" place for cancer to come back, but the liver is one of the worst. Anyways, she has just started a new oral chemo that has made her EXTREMELY sick, in pain, and physically weak. Originally she was torn as to what to do in regards to treatment, but upon returning to the oncologist and hearing "without treatment you have about 3-4 months to live," she decided to go forth with it. 
Please join me in praying for Cathey and her family. Pray for her healing, strength, appetite, and for her pain to subside. Please pray that God would just pour down His blessings of peace and comfort to her and her family...especially the teenage daughter she has. Pray for a miracle!

And selfishly, pray for me. You see, to me,  she is another "Kate." Like my sweet Kate, Cathey and I share the same oncologist, and were diagnosed within  6 months of each other with breast cancer. My instant reaction is to run run run as fast as I can from this so that I don't have to deal with seeing another friend suffer, but every time I try to push her out of my mind and "forget" about the situation, I feel God telling me to be His light. To be His hands and feet. The flesh part of me wants to say "heck no" because I walked this road with Kate and I still hurt from it and I don't want to do it again. However, the Spirit is telling me to do the opposite. I don't know why. I don't know why this is happening, but He is gently reminding me that this is another opportunity that He is giving me to share His love.  But why does it have to be with someone who I can so closely identify with? Why can't it be a neighbor who is super healthy or someone at the gym who just needs a good influence? 
Last night, I cried myself to sleep asking God why things had to be this way, and just pleading for Him to heal Cathey completely. My heart is already burdened to the "n'th" degree so I don't know how this is all going to play out or how this is going to grow me in Christ in process, but I am trying to just trust in God's sovereignty and remember that this will all be for His glory which makes all the suffering that we all endure worth every second.

Sunday, November 6, 2011

Finally...Something that Works

Aaah, I am sitting here about to watch a movie with my wonderful husband on a Saturday night and am feeling absolutely fantastic other than just a touch of nausea (but it's totally manageable!). Three days ago, I got my third treatment and normally, I would still be in the bed or on the couch at this point. However, we tried a new drug this time to offset the nausea and IT WORKED!!! I was even up and about yesterday evening with the kids and then was out ALL DAY TODAY at soccer games, the mall, etc... I cannot believe how amazing this new drug is and had I known how great it would work, I would have never been hesitant to try it to begin with. Now granted, I did sleep for about 1.5-2 days, but still, I was not hugging the toilet or feeling like I was going to so in my mind, that is a success!

On another note, I am in a discipleship group that I want to share with you about, but that is for another post. This is NOT another Bible study, but an actual discipleship group. And I'm telling you that I have learned sooooo very much and am learning more each week. It's exciting to even think about it and I love going each week.
However, right now, my husband and the movie are calling so I will tell you all about the group next time. Until then...